Human Design Manifestor

I recently have become interested in the Human Design. Last summer, my good friend sought me out and asked my date of birth because he was interested in what my Rave Chart would say. It turns out, I am a Manifestor. Now, I'm generally a wee bit cynical about such concepts. It uses astrology in a way that is very different from Horoscopes, creating a chart that categorises people into 4 different classes. In order of the most common to the least common: Generator, Projector, Manifestor, and Reflector.

As a Manifestor, I am a natural born leader. We make up approximately 7 percent of the population. Ironically, most Manifestors go about their lives with much passivity. At early ages, because we do not know how to inform before making our decisions, we are met with resistance. Resistance leads to feelings of anger, resentment, and bitterness. Many Generators go on to assume the roles of Manifestors because of our withdrawal from our duties. I know this has explained my experiences perfectly. Now that I inform, it seems to work much better. I still do not always do it, though, and I get reclusive and sardonic as a result.

We Manifestors also need time to process information before making decisions. We cannot be impulsive. Impulsiveness tends to result in making poor decisions that we would not have made if we had taken the time to saturate in the possibilities and come to precise conclusions. I already knew I was an INFJ-T personality type from the Myers Briggs Personality Test. I've scored consistently this result. It is the most extroverted of the introverts, which I feel correlates well with my Manifestor status. I am sociable up to a point, then I shut down and need alone time to process and compute. I understand this aspect of myself more and more each day, and I'm definitely forming healthy relationships with myself because of it.

At the same time, I find the relationship between informing and deciding to be a challenging one. How do I inform someone of future possibilities if they are mere speculations? I do not want to continually inform people of possibilities that fall through or change. It makes me look like I do not know what I am doing. But here I go with caring too much about my social appearance. I am sure people appreciate being informed. It certainly makes me feel like someone cares about me if they're expressing future plans or ideas with me, so I should not be so hard on myself. I love myself. I must love myself, flaws and all. I know I do when I say it. I need only to say it more often and not criticise so much.

An interesting aspect of Human Design in relation to my Elationships is that the two people I've shared my chart with were both Projectors. They both, consciously or unconsciously, recognise their human nature and communicate with me in a way that puts me in the position of the enabler. They approach me because I give them cues that I am enabling them to communicate with me, be that through the app I met the last one on, or through interacting in groups that allow the interactions to take place as with the former one. These interactions have been the most harmonious ones I've ever encountered. While the first was not a romantic elationship, I am excited and grateful to say the second one is headed that way and will be sure to unravel some interesting revelations.

For this last section, I wish to discuss the Natal Birth Chart in comparison to Human Design. This section will be more specific to my own chart. As a Pisces who has a lot of Aquarius in her chart, it would not be wrong of me to say I'm a very ungrounded person. I live in speculation, swimming amongst the sea and sky like some sort of crane. I don't actually think of myself as a crane. I tend to think of myself as a golden eagle, as it is one of my spirit animals, although I have a connection with owls, as well. I am more a creature of the sun than the moon, but I can appreciate both. I also like to think of myself as a water dragon of some sort. A creature that is predatory in both water and air.

It is clear in this example that I'm very imaginative yet somehow pragmatic. I pride myself in these traits because my poetry is one of a kind and leaves me feeling in awe of myself. At the same time, I am humble and blessed to be given these abilities. Due to my air and water signs, it can be very difficult for me to focus on the physical world. I am very observant of my environment, but situations and human interactions that are gossip-related or materialistic do not interest me. I love speculations, mysteries, possibilities. As a Manifestor, this is a major dilemma. How can someone so ungrounded inform and execute concrete plans? I want to be a leader of dreamers, but to do that, I would still need to have a level of focus on the material world in order to establish and found my ideas.

I am indecisive, but I don't necessarily view that as a bad thing. I'm clearly here, getting a degree. I clearly left my country for this one on my own. Perhaps I underestimate my abilities to define and conquer. Perhaps I need only to access the passion I know is eagerly sat within my turbulent troubles. Maybe I am up for the challenge, but I also know that it is not the time. I have some semi-short term goals I am currently completing that would be a waste to abandon for long term goals and dreams. These smaller goals are a natural progression to the overall hierarchy- that infinite pinnacle- of my creation. My Manifestor abilities are telling me it is not the time, and I feel comfortable in saying such a thing.

"And indeed there will be time... 

There will be time, there will be time

To prepare a face to meet the faces that you meet;

There will be time to murder and create,

And time for all the works and days of hands

That lift and drop a question on your plate;

Time for you and time for me,

And time yet for a hundred indecisions,

And for a hundred visions and revisions,

Before the taking of a toast and tea...

And indeed there will be time

To wonder, “Do I dare?” and, “Do I dare?”

Time to turn back and descend the stair,

With a bald spot in the middle of my hair —

(They will say: “How his hair is growing thin!”)

My morning coat, my collar mounting firmly to the chin,

My necktie rich and modest, but asserted by a simple pin —

(They will say: “But how his arms and legs are thin!”)

Do I dare

Disturb the universe?

In a minute there is time

For decisions and revisions which a minute will reverse."

-Excerpt from: Eliot, T.S. "The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock."